What Women Fear: Walking in a Faith that Transforms {Chapter 5 & 6} Pt 1

We are walking in faith of the One True God who wants us to cast our cares to Him.  
As a group of women we are reading “What Women Fear: Walking in a Faith that Transforms”  
We are stepping out in faith and turning over our fears to God.  This is a post on the fear of death.Image

I’ve seen a lot of loss in my life.  I lost my parents when I was a teenager and stood by as both my brother and sister lost their sons, all in separate incidents.  How does one cope with such loss?  I think its normal to fear death.  But each time I lost someone, I bottled up my fear and took care of others.  It’s what I do.  It’s my “go to” default behavior.  Try to control the situation.

Angie’s story of spending the night at her grandparents house resonated with me.  I’ve been there.  The watchful one, trying to make sure everyone was safe.  I assumed responsibility of keeping everyone safe.  It was all up to me.  Funny thing is, I don’t remember anyone asking me to do that.

Tragically, my nephew was shot when he was 16 years old.  As word got out in the community about my nephew,  others wondered how this could happen to a young promising high school football player, an only child,  gone from this life as we knew it.  Innocence was lost for these young high school kids.  Innocence was lost for me too.  This caused me to be on my guard, trying so hard to keep my own teenagers safe from the evils out there. I was tormented.

What developed in the weeks, months, actually years to come was a huge fear of death.  I wasn’t afraid to die, I was terrified something would happen to my kids.  This fear consumed me, enveloped me and I couldn’t see how I was slowly hurting the ones I was trying so hard to keep safe.

Angie states in her book “I think it’s natural for us to fear death – both our own and the death of those we love.  It is horrific reality that sin exists.  Satan delights in our sleepless nights and our doubts in God’s sovereignty.  We must continually turn it over to the Lord and surround ourselves with the people who urge us to trust His goodness.”

Here is where perspective comes in.  When we are deep into holding onto our fears, Satan will use that to further separate us from the truth.  God is good.  His eternal plan for us is far greater than we can even imagine.  So if joy awaits us, what is there to be afraid of?  It’s in those times our fears consume us that we need to lean into Him.  It is not an easy thing to let go of fear.  For me, I have had to cling to His Word.  This was and still is how I lean into God.

“He is the safe place I have spent so many days trying to create myself.”   Angie Smith

If I had spent my days leaning into Him as my safe haven perhaps I wouldn’t have created such a wedge in relationships I was trying so hard to hold onto.  Has your fear consumed you so much you are missing Him or His blessings?  Are you in control or is it controlling you?  There are no easy answers to this, no 4 step process to rid us of this fear.

Angie, begins her story talking about Jesus and the disciples in a storm.  So, where does our faith lie?  As Angie says, “Is it the structure of the boat?” Or is it believing the One who has called you to step out in faith in His plans.

This was one fear I painstakingly gave over to God.  It wasn’t an easy thing to do, but I will tell you it can be done.  The burden of carrying around our fears is a heavy one.  I have found peace in giving this one over to God.  I still worry.  After all, I’m a mom, but I know that God is in control and I need to trust Him in all things.